Blogging is... Liberation!

Sunday night late, and I am still not ready to sleep.  I had a difficult weekend, firstly, because of a couple of silly, but stressful situations playing out, and secondly because an incident occurred that brought to the surface a number of unhappy and upsetting memories.  Due to "prolonged excessive stress" (the doctor's words, not mine) I am currently on a six month course of anti-depressive medication and my new batch of pills did not arrive yet and thus I had to stop taking them suddenly.  Now, anybody who has ever taken these drugs this medication will know the effect of a sudden stop.  So yes, not even a visit from Eliza (my eldest daughter) could not lighten the dark cloud hovering over my head this weekend.

Then, this evening I found two comments on my blog from new people and one of them even became a follower.  This did the trick.  The cloud has not dissipated altogether, but has lightened considerably.  This is how important a role blogging has come to play in my life...  when and how did that happen?

Where I live and work I find it very difficult to socialise with people in a relaxed and natural manner...  somehow I am always expected to perform or have the answer or to be the shoulder, etc., etc., (I know many of my blogland friends will identify with this).  I never feel under a similar obligation when I blog.  I feel I can be myself (even selfish and get away with it) so it has become an escape to me from the pressures that threaten to smother me completely.  I can express my thoughts, ideas, experiences and emotions without being berated.  Thank you bloggies for giving me this sense of liberation.

Also, in the community where I function, topics of conversation are normally limited to what the blacks (that evil force called government and usually a much worse word is used) are doing to this country, how badly the municipality performs (same as twenty years ago only now it is so much more exciting because most of "them" are black), what is the newest scandal/sob story in Huisgenoot (popular boring magazine) or what happened on Sewende Laan (popular, repetitive and boring soapie)... negative, negative, negative and bo-o-o-ring!  So once again, Blogland is Liberation-land.  It takes me out of my tiny little fishpond and allows me to swim the oceans of the world.

Now I am asking:  "Is it wrong, sinful, mentally unstable, sociopathic, etc. (ad infinitum) to love blogging?"... because I do!  

PS:  I do hope the people from mennolink.org will forgive me for using their image. It really portrays my feelings exactly.